Monday, January 23, 2012

Monday----- it's my Friday!!

Hello blog-world!

Since I work in a hotel today is my Friday, which means the weekend starts tomorrow!! yeay!!
I'll keep this short since I don't have many news. I still haven't heard from my Lap-Band rep about my insurance, which is normal because it's only been a couple of days since they turned in my paperwork and she said it would take 2-3 weeks... uuuugh- can't wait that long!

Remember the "non-diet" I had started last week? The one where I was just going to eat healthy and less. Well, the first 3 days I lost 2 pounds, but now I've gained 2 pounds, so cam out even. See, loosing weight just does not work with me any more.

That's it! I love reading all your blogs, I promise mine will get more interesting once I actually get the Lap-Band!

Much love.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Blogger break...

Yesterday was the 18th! This means it has been 3 months since my first Band appointment, so my rep can now submit the papers to my insurance!!! Yesssss!!! :) Please cross your fingers, pray, fast, light a candle, sing - WHATEVER you do so that my insurance approves my band. It should take 2-3 weeks to hear back from them, I'll let you know as soon as I hear the result!

In other news, I got so disgusted with how I've been eating (a lot and very unhealthy) that since Sunday I've been eating very small portions and healthy. Not dieting---- just eating better. It hasn't been hard because I just feel disgusting. I've already lost 1 pound in just 5 days. We'll see... I had also had "Last Meal" meals for the last 3 months so that didn't help either.

Talk soon!

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Annoyed as &*^%... Thanks mom....

If my mom talks to me one more time about my weight I'll just dieeeee!!! sooo annoying, urgh!
She just sent me an email with a link to a Wellness Center because she is worried about my weight. Recently I've been just angry with her on the inside. Basically, I found a bunch of pictures of when I was in High School and even after High School (not that long ago, really) and I look just fine, even when she saw them she said, "Wow! You were so skinny!" But I remember even then having low self esteem when it came to my weight.
My point is that even when I was at my "healthiest" and fittest (surfing, running and kick boxing) all the time, I was still not happy and always saw myself as 'fat'.
Is this how it's going to be once I get the lap band and lose all the weight?
Will I even be confortable at my target weight?

I can't think of any day in the last 15++ years when I have not thought about my weight, or what I'm eating or how I look. I cry when I think about that.

That's all. Sorry for the depressing post. My mom (who doesn't even know about my blog or that i'm getting a lap band) put me in a bad mood.

Hope you have a better Saturday than me.....

Thursday, January 12, 2012

12 Things Thursday

1.       My favorite thing to do summer or winter is take SUPER hot showers, I mean really, really hot! Sometimes twice a day. That’s probably why my skin is so dry all the time.

2.       I LOVE general anesthesia. My first experience was when I got my breast implants a few years ago. Then recently with my endoscopy. And now I can’t wait till I get banded to go under again!

3.       I have fake boobs. I use to like them but since I’ve put on 90 lbs since I first got them, they are now droopy, heavy and hurt!

4.       I can’t wait to have a daughter so that I can put her in “Full Glitz” pageants. My mother will kill me and my husband will probably divorce me, but I want to the whole spray-tan, fake hair, glitter, everything!!!

5.       I hate pickles, I can’t even stand them in my burgers and when they are on my plate- yuck!

6.       I should be a certified Turbo Kick-Boxing instructor by now. But 90+ lbs gained in less than 1.5 years got in the way L

7.       Today is my Monday. My "weekends" are usually Tues-Weds.

8.       I am sooo scared that for some reason my insurance won’t go through. It just seems too good to be true.

9.       When I was in high school I played Water Polo, and the best part was all the ‘underwater’ fighting.

10.I really hate when people confuse their "than/then", "there/their", "your/you're", "to/too", etc. 

11.   I’ve been watching waaaaay too much Gossip Girl (4 seasons in 1.5 months) and now I totally think I’m Serena and someone is always scheeming against me.  

12.   It’s middle of winter and it’s been in the mid to high 70s here in San Diego, beach weather!

Monday, January 9, 2012

Invisible Blogger

Happy New Year!! I haven’t been gone. I read everyone’s blogs daily, I just don’t put anything in mine because really not much is going on. (ROCKBAND BARBIE I LOVE YOURS!) 
Band wise- I’m done with all the pre-requirements I needed to do (EKG, endoscopy, ultra-sounds, blood work, 3 nutritionist visits, and 2 sleep studies). My first orientation/visit was on October 18th, 2011 and per my insurance (Aetna), the request can only be submitted in exactly 3 months after my first visit. So on the 18th this month, my ‘rep’ at the doctor’s office will be submitting the paperwork. She said it takes 2-3 weeks to get a response. They better approve it! She says that most of the time they do, but if for some reason they don’t, we just have to appeal and then they most likely will.
I’m at 240 lbs right now…. The heaviest I’ve been, except for 2 years ago when I was pregnant but even my heaviest then was 245 lbs, so I feel pretty horrible right now.
I’ll post more often now, but they’ll be short until I have more news!
The surf’s up here in San Diego J