Monday----- it's my Friday!!

Hello blog-world!

Since I work in a hotel today is my Friday, which means the weekend starts tomorrow!! yeay!!
I'll keep this short since I don't have many news. I still haven't heard from my Lap-Band rep about my insurance, which is normal because it's only been a couple of days since they turned in my paperwork and she said it would take 2-3 weeks... uuuugh- can't wait that long!

Remember the "non-diet" I had started last week? The one where I was just going to eat healthy and less. Well, the first 3 days I lost 2 pounds, but now I've gained 2 pounds, so cam out even. See, loosing weight just does not work with me any more.

That's it! I love reading all your blogs, I promise mine will get more interesting once I actually get the Lap-Band!

Much love.

Blogger break...

Yesterday was the 18th! This means it has been 3 months since my first Band appointment, so my rep can now submit the papers to my insurance!!! Yesssss!!! :) Please cross your fingers, pray, fast, light a candle, sing - WHATEVER you do so that my insurance approves my band. It should take 2-3 weeks to hear back from them, I'll let you know as soon as I hear the result!

In other news, I got so disgusted with how I've been eating (a lot and very unhealthy) that since Sunday I've been eating very small portions and healthy. Not dieting---- just eating better. It hasn't been hard because I just feel disgusting. I've already lost 1 pound in just 5 days. We'll see... I had also had "Last Meal" meals for the last 3 months so that didn't help either.

Talk soon!

Annoyed as &*^%... Thanks mom....

If my mom talks to me one more time about my weight I'll just dieeeee!!! sooo annoying, urgh!
She just sent me an email with a link to a Wellness Center because she is worried about my weight. Recently I've been just angry with her on the inside. Basically, I found a bunch of pictures of when I was in High School and even after High School (not that long ago, really) and I look just fine, even when she saw them she said, "Wow! You were so skinny!" But I remember even then having low self esteem when it came to my weight.
My point is that even when I was at my "healthiest" and fittest (surfing, running and kick boxing) all the time, I was still not happy and always saw myself as 'fat'.
Is this how it's going to be once I get the lap band and lose all the weight?
Will I even be confortable at my target weight?


I can't think of any day in the last 15++ years when I have not thought about my weight, or what I'm eating or how I look. I cry when I think about that.


That's all. Sorry for the depressing post. My mom (who doesn't even know about my blog or that i'm getting a lap band) put me in a bad mood.


Hope you have a better Saturday than me.....

12 Things Thursday

1.       My favorite thing to do summer or winter is take SUPER hot showers, I mean really, really hot! Sometimes twice a day. That’s probably why my skin is so dry all the time.

2.       I LOVE general anesthesia. My first experience was when I got my breast implants a few years ago. Then recently with my endoscopy. And now I can’t wait till I get banded to go under again!

3.       I have fake boobs. I use to like them but since I’ve put on 90 lbs since I first got them, they are now droopy, heavy and hurt!

4.       I can’t wait to have a daughter so that I can put her in “Full Glitz” pageants. My mother will kill me and my husband will probably divorce me, but I want to the whole spray-tan, fake hair, glitter, everything!!!

5.       I hate pickles, I can’t even stand them in my burgers and when they are on my plate- yuck!

6.       I should be a certified Turbo Kick-Boxing instructor by now. But 90+ lbs gained in less than 1.5 years got in the way L

7.       Today is my Monday. My "weekends" are usually Tues-Weds.

8.       I am sooo scared that for some reason my insurance won’t go through. It just seems too good to be true.

9.       When I was in high school I played Water Polo, and the best part was all the ‘underwater’ fighting.

10.I really hate when people confuse their "than/then", "there/their", "your/you're", "to/too", etc. 

11.   I’ve been watching waaaaay too much Gossip Girl (4 seasons in 1.5 months) and now I totally think I’m Serena and someone is always scheeming against me.  

12.   It’s middle of winter and it’s been in the mid to high 70s here in San Diego, beach weather!

Invisible Blogger

Happy New Year!! I haven’t been gone. I read everyone’s blogs daily, I just don’t put anything in mine because really not much is going on. (ROCKBAND BARBIE I LOVE YOURS!) 

Band wise- I’m done with all the pre-requirements I needed to do (EKG, endoscopy, ultra-sounds, blood work, 3 nutritionist visits, and 2 sleep studies). My first orientation/visit was on October 18^th, 2011 and per my insurance (Aetna), the request can only be submitted in exactly 3 months after my first visit. So on the 18^th this month, my ‘rep’ at the doctor’s office will be submitting the paperwork. She said it takes 2-3 weeks to get a response. They better approve it! She says that most of the time they do, but if for some reason they don’t, we just have to appeal and then they most likely will.

I’m at 240 lbs right now…. The heaviest I’ve been, except for 2 years ago when I was pregnant but even my heaviest then was 245 lbs, so I feel pretty horrible right now.

I’ll post more often now, but they’ll be short until I have more news!

The surf’s up here in San Diego J

Hugs!

About me TUESDAY (better late than never) ;)

Before I begin to answer the questions, I wanted to let you all know that I had my endoscopy, EKG, blood work and ultrasounds over the weekend. Everything went really well, the endoscopy was fun... they knocked me out completly (love, LOVE general anesthesia!), and everything else was easy. The nurse actually thanked me for not complaining at all while taking blood samples.
I also got my results from the sleep study program; I have "Mild obstructive sleep apnea", I guess. I know that they exagerate everything a little more so that it will pass with insurance. I mean, I know I snore, but I don't wake up throughout the night and I don't wake up tired. But I'll take it ;) I have a 2nd sleep study I have to do at the end of the month.

On to something fun....


1. Does your family/friends know about your blog?Naaah. The only person that even knows about my surgery is my husband. I'm really close with my mom, but she has a biiiiiiiiig mouth and just can't hold secrets sadly. So no.

2. What is your favorite card game?
Dumb question. Next...

3. What do you wear to bed? 

Usually just a t-shirt and undies, but since it's getting cooler here in SD, a t-shirt and pajama pants.

4. What is your favorite kind of French Fry?
If the card game questions was dumb, then this one is just stupid. Fat girl question for sure, haha. But, okay, curly fries.

5. What is your usual bed time?
I work early, so I like to sleep early. I like to be in bed by 10-10:30pm, and sleeping by 11pm.

Take care everyone!!! See you next Blog ;)

Nothing really to write, but here's some more about me.....

Hi ! I haven't written because not much has been going on. I had my sleep study last week and my results came in, I keep forgetting to call the doctor to hear what they are. I don't think I have "sleep apnea", but I know I snore because my husband never forgets to let me know, hehe.
Tomorrow I have my EKG and Endoscopy along with a bunch of other mandatory lab tests and x-rays and ultrasounds. At least I'll get them all done with on one day though. I'll let you know how those were.
Below are a few questions I answered. Have fun reading them and post me a comment if you have any suggestions, questions or comments!

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!!

1.What was the last song you listened to last night?
"Loca" by Shakira on the Latin Grammy's, which were awesome by the way :)


2.What color is the top you are wearing today?
Beige. Yuck--- (uniform)


3.Would you rather be a dove or eagle?
Eagle


4.What is your favorite saying?
"Everything happens for a reason"


5. Where is your favorite place on earth?
Any beach- but Bali has the most beautiful ones!


6.When you are sure no one is watching what do you do?
I dunno, crazy, i have a 2 yo that sticks to me like glue, so I'm always being watch ;)


7.If you were to produce movie about yourself, which actor or actress would you cast as you?
Cameron Diaz


8.Who did you hug last?
My son

9.What color is your car?
Blue

10. Which one of your physical features do you like most?
My hair

11. If you were stuck on a desert and could only bring one thing with you, what would
you bring?
Music, water, my whole family

12. Coffee or tea?
Iced-caramel macchiatto

13. Daisies or lilies?
Lillies

14. Chocolate or ice cream?
Chocolate

15. Soul or Rock?
Pop